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So I didn't forget. I've just been really busy at school lately.
Today I had UIL Academic Competition in Round Rock, so that lasted a good part of the day. I didn't place, but hopefully by the time District rolls around, I'll be good to go.
I'll write more tomorrow, but I felt like informing myself that I still want to keep this thing alive.
Later.

    So I didn't go to school today.
    I started getting stomich cramps (No, not those kinds of cramps if your wondering.) last night. They were pretty fierce. I think it was the spaghetti that I had yesterday for lunch. It tasted really raw, but I was starving and I still had another 2 hours of school to go.
    I'm better now, but blah. So I spent the day lounging around in my PJs doing nothing. Got a package ready to go for a book I sold on eBay, and checked out The Canvas for new Liason spoliers/gossip.
    I REALLY should have been working on my college stuff, but maybe tonight if I force myself to do it, I will. I need to because time is passing me by.
    My Mom's working all day, so I gave her some money and asked her to please buy me these cool little things. Hey now, don't laugh. I used to think of them as asture, but when I saw one up close a few weeks ago, I really did like them. Mama says that they want all the Post Offices to rid themselves of the 37 cent stamps as fast as they can, so I'm trying to do my patriotic duty here. Plus, the new 2 cent stamps are neato, so I don't mind adding them on as well. In all honesty, I really don't know why I'm so infatuated with stamps and letters and mailing stuff in general. I think there's something so "Old World" about it that I love. I'm strange, I know.
    I shall be off but perhaps more later? I so hope, my love.

I'm on a roll, aren't I? Seriously now, I do not want to jinx myself, but I wanted to kill just a few more minutes before I hit the sack.
So I did, indeed, mail my paper in this afternoon. When I asked Dr. Sanders at Orientation a while ago how discouraging she was towards us mailing in papers rather than faxing them, she said it'd take like three days for her to get it and all. She then said that she requires at least 48 hours grade a paper. But I'm going to e-mail her on Thursday to see if she got it and/or has graded it yet.
I'm comtemplating starting on paper 2, but I'm wondering if I'll jinx myself (Jinx is the word tonight, isn't it?). It'd be killer if I started and it turns out that the paper wasn't accepted. Forget killer - it'd be embarassing and fatal.
I know that I've screwed my education up more so than there's time to repair over the last four years. I don't want to lie: I'm petrified and scared straight over the fact that college is less than 4 months away. I'm not sure if I can muster up the courage to even apply to schools. Yes, I do want to go to college and get my degree, but I've been so sheltered all my life that I'm not sure I can make it on my own.
I know this might seem insignificant and timidly minute to others, but I seriously think that I would have so much more confidence in myself if I knew how to drive. I think that because I haven't learned (I'd be cheating myself if I said I wasn't scared about learning.), I feel so stressed out about everything else in general. In all honesty, I feel like the only 17 year old in the world who can't drive. And I know that that's so not true, but it's such a dark cloud hanging over me right now.
But I'm putting it all in God's hands. I may not be the most devout Catholic (Cafeteria Catholic? No. I'm as right wing as California is west.) ever, but I know how much prayer can help.

Wow.  Another new journal.  Let's try to keep this one in the mix and know, shall we?  The name comes from the address of an apartment buidling in NYC.  And we all know how famous Broadway is!  I'm determined to live there one day.

So I'm a week into my Composition 1302 class and I'm hopeful that I'll be able to fax or mail in my paper today.  It's a Print Based Course since it's Distance Learning, but I think I'll like it this way.  Mailing stuff always makes me smile.  Crazy, right?  The paper was over central idea/theme towards Shirley Johnson's "The Lottery."  Wicked story.  I want to see the movie now.

So this girl - who I never knew, but who a lot of people here at school were either related to or knew very well - from Luling died this weekend in a car crash.  Her and a friend were driving from Columbus (The halfway point between Luling and Houston - still a good hour and a half away.) to Halettsville to go to an after party and hit a tree.  The friend was driving and broke her neck, but she didn't die and is on life support.  Crazy stuff.  Not to sound insensetive, but who the hell goes to a party an hour and a half away, maybe gets drunk and high, and then heads who knows how many miles away to go to an after-party?  This, in a way, makes me glad that I can't drive.  If I was still at SM and could drive, yeah...I'd be more than happy to be the DD.  To save my friend's life is more important to me than just getting a cheap and quick thrill from liquid.

In other news, I'm way happy that Pittsburg won the AFC and are going to the Superbowl.  Troy Polamalu is heaven on earth.  I adore him to no end.  He's my measure of a man right now.  He knows how to life life: with passion.  He loves his faith (He's Catholic.), his wife, Theodora (Who's beautiful!  He is seriously so in love with her.  I want a husband like that.), and his life in general.  Go, Troy.  He's so handsome, too.  I'm a Steelers fan, but I'm a Troy fan first!

I must be off but I'll be back later.  That's for sure.